Where do I start....the search for me

The last time that I posted, times were happy and full of love.  Amazing how your life can change in the blink of an eye.

January 28, 2020 changed my life forever when I had to bid my forever love farewell as he crossed over to his Heavenly Home.  For years we counseled and guided folks into and through the journey of grief together as a team, but this time I could not be my own guide.....I was the one about to enter the painful journey.  It was also the time of Covid and I would be alone most of the time....not a healthy combination for sure, but I made it.

During our 54 years of marriage we faced a lot of challenges, but we were together and that makes all the difference.  I was now alone and had to figure out "Who am I without you?"  Not easy at 74 years old.

It has been two years now.  I still cry.....smile.....reminince great memories....and search for me.  I am OK as far as most things are concerned, learning how to face new tasks and how to ask for help with those tasks that are beyond my level.  He taught me well!

Family and loved ones are there for me and have been very understanding to the needs in my journey of grief, allowing me to choose when and where to be around a lot of people.....that is so very important to me.

Searching for self in your teens is complicated and exciting all at the same time.  Searching for self in the Golden years takes on a much different aura.  I still can't explain that process yet as I have not reached a destination.....but maybe in the future I will be ready to write more about the journey.

Until then, I approach each day differently hoping that soon the Covid crisis will be over and travel will allow me more exploring and discoveries about "me".

I leave you today from a new location with reflections from the mountains.....